198:LONG GAP

ITS REALLY A LONG GAP I MEAN NONE OF US GOT TIME TO EVEN WRITE ANYTHING .THIS IS BAD.OK SO LET ME TELL U WAT ALL HAPPENED.
HEY ITS FEB SO MONTH OF LOVE AND MY FIRST VALENTINE WITH MY LOVE , I AM SO EXCITED AND MY FR ND A ALSO B,COZ ITS HER ALSO FIRST VALENTINE AFTER ENGAGEMENT SO WE BOTH ARE LOOKING FORWARD TO IT . HE IS NOT COMING ON VALENTINE AND TOLD ME NOT TO SEND ANY GIFT BY COURIER B,COZ LAST TIME IT WAS ALMOST LOST . ON 14TH I WENT FOR SHOPPING AND BOUGHT MANY GIFTS FOR HIM AND HE IS SOOOOOOOOOOOO BAD HE HAVEN'T BOUGHT ANYTHING FOR ME.I WAS SO HAPPY ON THAT DAY WENT TO MY OFFICE TALKED WITH HIM WAS MISSING HIM SO MUCH.BUT HE TOLD ME HE WILL BE COMING THIS WEEK .BUT THAN HE WAS VERY BUSY AND HAVE NOT GOT TIME TO COME DOWN .
AFTER THIS THE WHOLE MONTH WAS GOOD AND HE TOLD ME THAT HE IS GOING TO COME THIS WEEK AND THAN NEXT WEEK.BUT HE IS NOT ABLE TO COME I KNOW HE IS MISSING ME LIKE CRAZY AND REALLY WA NA MEET ME BUT NOT POSSIBLE .AND B COZ OF ALL THIS I AM ALSO GOING MAD.AS HE IS IN HIS UNCLES PLACE HE CANT TALK WITH ME BUT NOW HE BOUGHT A PC AND AT LEAST WE MEET ONLINE EVERYDAY AND THE BEST THING IS WE BOTH HAVE WEB CAMS SO WE CAN SEE EACH OTHER BUT,IT IS MORE FRUSTRATING B COZ NOW U CAN SEE HIM AND MISSING HIM MORE BUT AT LEAST U CAN SEE .ON MY WORK SIDE THINGS R NOT THAT GOOD MY FRND R WHO IS THE OWNER OF THE FRANCHISE IS GONE MAD AND NOT INTERESTED IN DOING ANYTHING HE IS TURNED INTO A "DEVDAS"AND I SPEND MY WHOLE FEB TRYING TO MAKE HIM NORMAL BUT I GAVE UP NOW.AND NOW DECIDED TO MOVE FORWARD LIKE WAT I AM GONNA DO WITH MY FUTURE MY CAREER AND WITH MY "M" .
THE PROBLEM IS THAT NOW WAT EVER I DO MY FIRST PREFERENCE IS "M".AND ONE PROBLEM IS THAT I SO THINGS WAT I LIKE IF I AM NOT HAPPY THAN I AM NOT GOING TO DO IT ANYWAY.WELL AND MY EXAMS ARE COMING SO QUITE TENSED FOR THAT ALSO .
ON THE OTHER HAND MY FRND R IS GONE FOR JOB HUNT AND I AM KINDA FEELING VERY LONELY AND MY FRND S WILL GO OUT FRND A IS ALSO GOING TO JOIN SOME COLLEGE AND IN THAT WAY I AM LEFT ALONE HERE THAT IS MORE DEPRESSING.AND THE BASIC PROBLEM IS MISSING M LIKE CRAZY .

239:ITS OKKKKKKKK

He called me in the afternoon and told me that he is not getting reservation and he is planning to drive and come.But then he realised that it can be a big stupidity its long distance and then he has to go back. Then he called me in evening and asked me should he drive and come i said no need. And i know how much we both are missing each other but i its ok.
He said he is very lucky he found me b coz instead of getting angry or upset i was making him understanding that its ok one more week .I LOVE MY BABYYYYYY

240:MEMORIES

TODAY i went to bhopal reached there at 1 in afternoon met a frnd then doen some work at office there. After that i was free and me and my frnd 'a' was roaming and i am telling u it was like moving on the roads on which we two use to move, places,restuarant i was missing him like anything and my frnd 'a' was enjoying this .
i cant face bhopal without him my mind dont work cant help it .

242:LOVELY FAMILY

'M' is in his home town . His family is also there and i spended almost 3 hrs with his family i talked with his brother,frnd and even missed his frnd 'k'.He was so happy with his family that at that point of time i was just wishing that i could be the part of that gathering and laugh with them , talk with them, i dont have words i was so happy seeing him happy with his family. I was watching him and his family on cam.I am really happy. and let me tell he lost weight more happyyyyyyyyyy.
but on the other side whnever i see his family a thought comes in mind that what if his family dont accept me ? and i never want him to make a choice between his family and me i always pray that his family accepts me.

244:MISSING HIM

as the heading is expressing i am missing him too much .And going crazy. He is being too busy we are not getting time to even talk its being so long that i heard him laugh or we talking nicely. When ever he calls me i am like so happy cant tell.But after he keeps the phone he dont even how much i am crying i mean i am really going mad.From so many days its like he just calls me and we talk for some mins.I am not able to work b coz my mind always with him,thinking about him or wana think about him.
Except all this all my frnds are also going through many ups and downs so they all are also not happy so that also making me more depressed.
ITS NOW GETING TO TOUGH FOR ME. he is coming this week but thn also i dont know . i chated with his frnd for long time he is very good and after talking about "m" for so long now u can think how i am

273 : LETTER FROM K

Those days were memorable when we used to talk on phone for hours,Those days were beautiful when we used to meet and look into each others eyes,I still remember the day when we met for the first time ,And I never knew, that day is near where we would leave each other for some reasons, But how much ever you are far away from me,my heart is always with you and your's with mine,And I still believe that one day our love will shine,I'm living on hope that one day u would be mine and only mine.
ur k